I'm mad at myself, not you...

I'm mad for always being nice, always apologizing for things I didn't do, for getting attached, for making you my life, depending on you, wasting my time on you, thinking about you, forgiving you, wishing for you, dreaming of you,

But most of all, for not hating you, which I know I should......

But I just can't....

You can say sorry a million times, say I love you as much as you want, say whatever you want, whenever you want. But if you're not going to prove that the things you say are true, then don't say anything at all. Because if you can't show it, your words don't mean a thing.

If you LOVE someone, tell HIM or HER. Forget about the rules or the fear of looking ridiculous. What is truly ridiculous is passing up on a an opportunity to tell someone that your heart is invested in him or her.

I'm not an expert at relationships. I don't know how to handle every fight we're going to have, and I will never be a perfect person. We're both still young, and we still have a lot more to learn. But I'm willing to take chancers, to risk it all, and learn everything there is to know just so I can KEEP US TOGETHER. 

♥ I WON'T GIVE UP ON YOU ♥

Then there would be no need to impress you. No need to want you. No need for loving you. No need for crying over you. No need for heartbreaks. No need for pain or tears. No need for forgotten promises. No need for rejected hugs. No need for crying myself to sleep. No need for acting like you care. No need, for everything you've done to make me feel like absolutely nothing.

But then again, i did met you. Cause you were the one who always asked me if anything was wrong. You were to one who loved me for me. The one who cared when everyone else didn't. Th eone who listened. The one who stayed up late just to talk about the randomest shit ever. You were the one who I told secrets to. The one who taught me new things. The one who laughed at my bad jokes. The one who did things, just for me.

In life we do things. Some we wish we had never done. Some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads. But they all make us who we are. And in the end they shape every detail about us. If we were to reverse any of them we wouldn't be the person we are. So just live. Make mistakes. Have wonderful memories. But never ever second guess who you are. Where you have been, and most importantly where it is you're going.

Yes you. Stop being unhappy with yourself. You are perfect. Stop wishing you looked like someone else or wishing people liked you as much as they like someone else. Stop trying to get attention from those hurt you. Stop hating your body, your face, your personality, your quirks. Love them. Without those things you wouldn't be you. And why you would you want to be anyone else? Be confident with who you are. Smile. It'll draw people in. If anyone hates on you because you're happy with yourself then you stick your middle finger in the air and say screw it. My happiness will not depend on others anymore. I'm happy because I love who I am. I love my flaws. I love my imperfections. They make me me. and 'me' is pretty amazing.